I have mentioned this before on my blog, but it is relevant to repeat it.
When I was 18 I made three life goals for myself.
The first was to obtain my black belt in Taekwondo. I have completed this. I am continuing in Taekwondo and plan to work towards my 2nd degree black belt. I will still be posting about this journey, but not as often.
My second goal was to obtain a doctorate degree. I currently have an MS in Applied Developmental Psychology. I do plan on going further to get my doctorate degree. However, after a lot of thought I have decided that now is not the time to focus on this goal.
My third goal was to publish a book. I have loved reading and writing for as long as I can remember. I was the kid who had a book and a journal on them at all times. I worked on my middle school newspaper, was selected to attend a young writers conference, studied creative writing in high school and college - even though I was just short of graduating when I dropped out. When I went back to school I obtained a minor in English even though none of my nearly finished degree ended up transferring over.
When I had kids I stopped writing. It was a huge part of myself that I had to give up. When you are a single parent raising two children with autism and one with schizoaffective disorder you have no leeway to be creative.
For one of my children I cannot show emotion around her or it sets her off. I have to be calm and in control of myself at all times. If I am tired she is ten times more tired. If I am angry she is ten times more angry. If I get cut she hurts ten times worse then me.
Then there were the weeks without sleep that leave you cognitively and physically drained. There is navigating through the routine and persuasiveness of autism and the non-reality reality of schizophrenia. Of course there is the countless hours of screaming - the kids not me, although I often wished I could scream as well.
Then there was graduate school where my writing had to be more technical, more distant. That I could do in the midst of raising my children.
Now all three of my children are teenagers. They still require care, and there are days that my brain still has to shut down to handle the meltdowns, the absolute rages. However, I find myself able to write again.
My stories tend to be a bit based on my experiences raising my children, having asperger's myself, and just trying to show the positive and unique side of being different. I used to write science fiction exclusively, and I find myself throwing mental health and science fiction together.
I have a novel that I am writing. It is in the horrible cranking out a first draft stage. Mostly I am focusing on my flash and short fiction. I am happy to say that I have my first, since I have been back writing, story accepted for publication. I will post the details of where to find it when it is officially published.
I am also working on an author page. I do not plan on putting a blog on the page, since I already have this one, but it will be more focused on me as a writer.
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