Perhaps you would not think that such a simple question - Why I Blog - would be a deeply personal question. Although, if you are also a blogger you many understand how personal it can be. Today I am attempting, in small part to let you know why I Blog. As such you will learn a lot more about me then I have let out in my blog in the past.
I am an Aspie - this means I am an individual with Asperger's Disorder. Technically this title was ripped away with the DSM-V, yet the reason it was ripped away was based on selective, and elites, research studies and not a combination of the entire body of research. I do not recognize the politics of this decision. Since I only have studied Autism and am not clinical I get to make such a distention. Since I am an Aspie I get to continue to identify as such.
However, this aspect of my life was not known until I was 24 when my oldest son was being diagnosed as the same.
Until then I was just the weird girl who lived in books. I did live in books. I had read the entire elementary school library before I left. In Middle School I spent all my breaks in the library and then went home and spent hours in the library by my house. I learned about astronomy, sexual education, and humanity from books.
I remember that during my sixth grade year the school ran a contest asking students to count up the minutes that they had read to earn awards and prizes. This contest ran for months and my diligent teacher attempted to get me to participate. It was a difficult period in my life and I had little use for others. Finally, I relented and joined in the very last two weeks of the contest. Only recording the time that I had read during these two weeks. I came in third for the school.
Why I Write?
I knew in third grade that I was a writer. When we were prompted to do a story on a paper with those grid lines, my story flew off that page, on to another, then another, finally I abandoned that paper and wrote on the back without the size hampering me in. I wrote about frogs that grew on trees. I carried notebooks with stories. When I was not reading I was writing.
In middle school I was on the journalism team. I was selected to go to a writing workshop where my first story was published in the workshop's collection. I have no proof - but when I first saw Mission to Mars I thought "Wow my story was brought to life." If I would have stayed the course I have no doubt that I would be well into a successful enough writing career. Instead I had kids. While many people can manage both I could not.
Why I Blog?
I love my kids. They also take more energy than almost anyone could imagine. In one ways I am so grateful that they are all teenagers now, yet that still leaves me a mother of three teenagers. I am a single mother. I divorced eight years ago, before that my ex was military and I raised them on my own. Although, at least then I had his financial help. I went back to school and got my BA in Psychology with a minor in English. Then I got my MS in Applied Developmental Psychology. I worked as an ABA therapist for a while, but it was too much with my own children. Now I work in educational assessment and I love it. I have found my career. But one day I will go back and write a book. For now I am loving blogging.
I blog as a release from the day, as a way to stay connected to others, and a way to talk about books. It is another way to be adventurous and free, without having to be adventurous and free. Your life tends to be structured a bit different when you have so many differences in you family. My oldest son is an Aspie and also has ADHD. My middle daughter is diagnosed with Scitzoaffective Disorder - Bipolar type. My youngest is also an Aspie (a girl Aspie which makes then that much harder for her) and also has ADHD and is gifted. Books, and my blog, is my oasis away from therapists, medications, kidney doctors, meltdowns, school problems, IEPs, you name it. My blogging community is my best friends. Even if we may not know each other in person, even if it is the first time I have read your blog I can bond over a shared love of books.
My Life Goals
When I turned 18 I had three life goals:
1. Get a black belt in Taekwondo
2. Write a book
3. Obtain a Doctorate Degree
I am a red two in Taekwondo. I do not test as often, mostly due to money. But I am happy to say that my youngest became a black belt last month. I will be there in five months hopefully.
I have tried writing, really starting my book - or the first book of many. I love to write. I just can't do it yet. So much of my cognitive ability is devoted to my children that I would have to give that up to write. I cannot, yet. What I can do is Blog. I consider Blogging writing. It is writing, it hones my skills and I get to continue learning from other writers. Both what to do and what not to do.
I have my Master's degree. One day I will get my doctorate. I have ideas of where I want to go. I also have decided that it cannot happen until my middle daughter is 18 when I can get her the support that she needs. Hopefully. Because private insurance won't give it to her. But that is a whole different conversation.